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Sunday 30 July 2017

The tortiose can finally see the finish line.....eeeek!

So, again, its been a GOOD while since I have completed a blog, and AGAIN I have absolutely no excuses.

A quick update, I now volunteer two/three days a week at a local prison on the Independent Monitoring Board (IMB) - I have been doing this for about six months and I completely love it!! I have also been involved with TedX at my uni as a Speaker Liaison Officer (amazing experience - blog to definitely follow!).

Keeping me busy over summer is me completing my application for a MSc, volunteering one evening a week with counselling sex offenders, the prison volunteering as mentioned above, as well as working two days a week as an administrator as unfortunately, volunteering does not pay those bills!

I am awaiting to start my final semester at university....after four years of attending lectures, working hard and desperately trying to keep myself motivated, the last semester is quickly approaching.....and as much as I have been waiting for this, now that its here, I could kind of do with it being a little further away....whats wrong with me!!?? I wouldn't even mind, but I have studied this avoidant behaviour in lectures and I know that it is better to be proactive...but still...



*sigh*.....*longer sigh*....I just have to sit down, give myself the time to get started and then ensure that I give myself the best chance that I can - after all, its what Ive waited four years for!

Another feeling that I have towards going back to uni is anxiety. Usually August arrives I am excited for the term to start, but this time, I'll be on my own.  You see, everyone that I started university with, has graduated. Don't get me wrong, I am extremely proud of those I know that have graduated, and the grades that they received are well deserved - but I can't help but feel that I am forever the bridesmaid and never the bride!! I think I'm just nervous about the importance of this last semester and how much it actually means....

I don't mean to be so self involved with this blog - but it's always better to talk and express feelings than to keep them bottled up, allowing possible expansion to a ridiculous scale!! Also, I'd like to think that if there is anyone else with these feelings that they are not alone, to take a step back and breath. Everything will be okay.

So, I have scheduled my next blog for Tuesday, so I'll be writing about a podcast that I have finished listening to called 'S-Town' - a gripping and twisting true life tale of a fascinating character and the life that he lived.

Until next time Geekers  ðŸ‘ŒðŸ˜Š and thanks for putting up with me 💖 xx